Iwan Rheon - Tongue Tied
It's Simon! Or Barry! Or pedophile! Or panty-sniffer! Or you know, Iwan!
It's actually pretty good! And no, I can't stop/won't stop using exclamation marks!
Simon & Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence
Times like these make me feel awfully small. I don't know what I could possibly do besides raise awareness. I know everything helps but I feel so far away from the situation, not detached but just useless. It's so strange to think that people are being killed right now, that people still have to fight for democracy. I can barely process it because it seems so ridiculous. And the earthquake in New Zealand. What the fuck is going on in the world right now.
Fuck, this is so depressing. I don't even know what to do with myself.
Times like these make me feel awfully small. I don't know what I could possibly do besides raise awareness. I know everything helps but I feel so far away from the situation, not detached but just useless. It's so strange to think that people are being killed right now, that people still have to fight for democracy. I can barely process it because it seems so ridiculous. And the earthquake in New Zealand. What the fuck is going on in the world right now.
Fuck, this is so depressing. I don't even know what to do with myself.
I can't decide between
or
I have a gift card for American Apparel that I need to use so I gotta pick one. They're roughly the same price. I would need to buy a nude underthing for the dress though. I don't wear dresses very often but I quite like the design. I also cut my hair this weekend which has prompted me to want more feminine clothes because I don't want to look like a little Asian boy. I usually dress very much like a tomboy so the second suits my style a lot more. If I roll into class wearing that dress, people are going to pretty shocked. Plus, it's good for layering because I hate wearing long sleeve button-ups under anything, and I could actually wear it to work. Ahhhhhhh, I don't know!
or
I have a gift card for American Apparel that I need to use so I gotta pick one. They're roughly the same price. I would need to buy a nude underthing for the dress though. I don't wear dresses very often but I quite like the design. I also cut my hair this weekend which has prompted me to want more feminine clothes because I don't want to look like a little Asian boy. I usually dress very much like a tomboy so the second suits my style a lot more. If I roll into class wearing that dress, people are going to pretty shocked. Plus, it's good for layering because I hate wearing long sleeve button-ups under anything, and I could actually wear it to work. Ahhhhhhh, I don't know!
Bright Eyes - Shell Games
If I could change my mind, change the paradigm
Prepare myself for another life
Forgive myself for the many times
I was cruel to something helpless and weak
But here it come, that heavy love
I'm never gonna move it alone
...
I'm still angry with no reason to be
If I could change my mind, change the paradigm
Prepare myself for another life
Forgive myself for the many times
I was cruel to something helpless and weak
But here it come, that heavy love
I'm never gonna move it alone
...
I'm still angry with no reason to be
I was having dinner with my mom tonight and I was talking about going to university after I'm done college. I was complaining about feeling so old because I'm 18 now, and that's when most people go into their first year of school. Everyone I've met in college so far has been at least a few years older than me but I find university students usually go straight from high school, so when I go, I'm gonna be the weird kid who's been wasting my youth doing whatever the fuck. Ok, I know it's not out of the ordinary to go when you're older and I'm not condemning it because I think to pursue higher education at anytime is actually wonderful, which is why I've planned the next 5 years of my life there. It's just that I have a natural awkwardness about me when I'm around people my own age (probably just around everyone), and more so if they're younger. But as I was talking to my mom about all of this, she stopped me and asked how old my brother is. 21, of course. You're suppose to know that, mom. She stared at me blankly for a second. Then aren't you 19?
Wait.
What?
Holy shit, I am 19. This whole time I'd been saying I was 18. One year isn't a big difference but my birthday was months ago. This isn't a mistake I should be making, and it's not one I've made before. Not to this extent anyways.
And then I realized that the last few years of my life, though there were some big moments (ex. dropping out of university, my first love, getting my first full-time job, my first heartbreak, going to college), haven't exactly been memorable. All this time just melds into one and I can't remember feeling any of it.
So I think of myself younger than I am, not because I don't know my age, but because I just don't care.
Wait.
What?
Holy shit, I am 19. This whole time I'd been saying I was 18. One year isn't a big difference but my birthday was months ago. This isn't a mistake I should be making, and it's not one I've made before. Not to this extent anyways.
And then I realized that the last few years of my life, though there were some big moments (ex. dropping out of university, my first love, getting my first full-time job, my first heartbreak, going to college), haven't exactly been memorable. All this time just melds into one and I can't remember feeling any of it.
So I think of myself younger than I am, not because I don't know my age, but because I just don't care.
I love this movie so much, it's unhealthy.
I'm trying to quit facebook, or at least stop using it for now. I gave my password to a friend and had them change it so I can't go on at all. It's been one day, and I can already feel myself wanting to go on. I find myself just going to the site even though I can't sign in, out of habit. I don't even use it that often. I just go and read what everyone else is up to. No commenting or posting but I'm at a point right now where I don't want to be bothered with social interactions. I withdrew from most of my friendships in the past while, some enough so that I don't even consider us to be friends anymore, only facebook friends. But I'm completely ok with it; actually, I'm quite glad. I don't have to see people I don't want to, act like I enjoy anyone's company, or pretend that I like certain people when really, I could care less. So really, I hate everyone. =D
I'm being my fullest anti-social self and for the moment, it feels great.
I'm being my fullest anti-social self and for the moment, it feels great.
Part One: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi1594268185/
Part Two: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2147916313/
Part Three: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi1309055513/
Part Four: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2399574553/
It was so interesting to watch David Fincher work. He cares about every little detail, even if the shot only lasts for a second in the film. I don't usually watch extras so I don't know if most movies have as an extensive look at the making of as this, but I was amazed at the process of it all. Everyone working on this movie, geniuses.
Part Two: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2147916313/
Part Three: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi1309055513/
Part Four: http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2399574553/
It was so interesting to watch David Fincher work. He cares about every little detail, even if the shot only lasts for a second in the film. I don't usually watch extras so I don't know if most movies have as an extensive look at the making of as this, but I was amazed at the process of it all. Everyone working on this movie, geniuses.
This movie was so depressing. I would've liked to see Tommy more but other than that, really good. I especially loved the scenes with this song.
Class is canceled and instead of doing anything productive with my day off, I'm going to watch Jumanji again. I haven't seen it in ages and I miss it dearly. It's one of my favourites from childhood, from back when Robin Williams was in good movies.
I'll probably watch a bunch of other movies too. Oh what fun it is to snow.
I'll probably watch a bunch of other movies too. Oh what fun it is to snow.
